夢はひとつ
last night i dreamt. usually i don't remember my dreams but this one was too vivid and real to forget. it had 2 parts to it. and the 2 parts somewhat connected and somewhat distant too.
it started with me being in the office. sungei gedong qm branch office. i don't recall the details of why and how i got there, but i gradually realised that i have already ORDed. it was like 2 days after i ORDed so what the heck was i doing there? so i packed up my stuff, and changed, and left the camp.
the second part is what has been bothering me. or at least it concerns me. i dreamt that i was walking along the bishan road stretch from ri to bishan mrt. and i was walking with this girl. i dunno whether she was my gf, but it seemed so, cos she held me closely and walked with her head resting on my shoulder, and my hand was at her waist. it felt very blissful; i could remember in the dream. and it was so real, as if i really had such a girl in my life.
i do not recall how i met this girl, or how i started walking with her along bishan road. she had no name, no face i can remember and we did not speak. but we loved each other the same..
after walking for a while, i came across a table, where subash, peter, qm, alex, arasi and 2 other indian warrants sat. arasi and the 2 other indian warrants were smoking, and they had white powder on their faces, as if they had just gone for a facial powder bath. i was surprised to see subash and peter there cos they had already ORDed. so i asked subash what he was doing there. i don't recall the answer he gave, but i guess i shrugged at his answer and walked off eventually haha
the girl and i continued walking towards bishan north. and i could recall walking outside the gates of cat high. we held hands now, and i think we talked, or played, or teased each other. it was the same blissful feeling as before. i dreamt that i was in love with this female being that existed in my dream, but it just felt so real.
i don't recall how the dream ended. whether or not the girl and i ended walking to the same spot or in different directions or whatever. like i said i don't remember dreams, so when i woke up i was surprised that the dream still remained quite fresh in my head, though it was only bits and pieces. i wondered what significance it had, but i wanted so badly to keep it with me that's why i started blogging abt it even though i've not blogged for centuries.
the weirdest thing abt the dream was the love. is it just but chemical reactions in the brain? so much so that u don't need to actually have a person in mind in order to love? i am not attached, yet i feel as if i was attached to the girl in my dream. i am not in love with anyone, yet i feel so much love for that girl in my dream. how does sth so fake feel so real?
the love was a candysweet feeling. i probably felt it before towards my crush. but that was only a crush? i've not been attached before but i was so sure that the feeling i felt was love. hmm
the dream just feels too real
-12:54, Friday, Dec. 18, 2009